In 2011 I started training in Journey work – an amazing therapeutic process which takes one deep inside one’s unconscious and uncovers emotions, thoughts, beliefs that are holding one back – and releases them…

It is an extraordinary and wonderful thing… but as I lay in the bath this morning and thought of often the most transformational part of the process: self-forgiveness – it just all seemed so simple and so easy…

… and I found myself forgiving myself for being too fat, too thin; too forgetful, unable to forget; too untidy, too finicky; too lazy, too restless…

I found myself forgiving myself for being ordinary, cowardly, passive, selfish, less intelligent than I’d like…

I found myself forgiving myself for getting older, having a bit of a cold, not getting round to things…

And it all seemed so clear – and so easy … this is the human condition – to have grand notions of who we might be, and what we might do …

…and we are great and we do wonderful things … but we control nothing – not even our thinking – and certainly not the workings of our bodies or anything beyond our bodies –  so any idea we have of something we want to happen, something we want to do, to create – our input is only one of an infinite number of variables – so all we can do is give it our best shot and surrender …

In an earlier post I wrote that it seemed to me that most stress seems to come from – trying to control what we can control,  and trying to know what we can’t know…

…this morning that seems to be about everything!!!!!  And forgiving myself for having no absolute control over anything; or really being sure that I know ANYTHING seems to be the best way forward to have the best time 🙂   Sorry no attempt at humour today  – but luckily I can forgive myself 🙂