Good morning!

I have no idea how regularly  I am going to write my blog – but at the moment there is no stopping me!!

Since writing my blog yesterday I have had much more energy and many fewer flushes – so I’m a happy bunny!  I also had three bookings yesterday – and yesterday was Sunday! – so I must be doing something right 🙂

My nutrition lecturer told us that the most stressful thing that we can experience is to not be truly, fully who we are – so perhaps by choosing this path I am getting closer to who I really am – and the energy and fewer flushes are my reward 🙂

Despite having more energy I also watched quite a bit of telly – and thoroughly enjoyed it; left the sink full of washing up when I went to bed – and – I discovered this morning  – I also left a nice sticky pink mark on the kitchen table  – a testament to the stewed plums we had yesterday : )  Ooooh yes – and I had to get up from my telly watching as I heard the tell tale sound of a spoon moving in a bowl – and found my cat licking the last of the custard out of Tom’s bowl…

So being more truly who I am presumably means I am a bit of a slattern when it comes to keeping my kitchen nice and clean and tidy – do I care? Definitely not : )

This morning – in between preparing for a 9am appointment  (booked in at 9.50pm last night),  rejigging my Paypal page to enable the person to pay before they arrived, cooking myself buckwheat pancakes, and doing that washing up : ) … I also found myself getting ready for a bath and, instead of, as I have – everyday for five months – looking at my exfoliating mit and thinking I really ought to get that out and use it – and then feeling overwhelmed with the effort of lifting my hand to pick it up – so I don’t…

…today I thought, “Ooooh! Yes! That would be good! ” – and my hand effortlessly lifted it up and popped it on the side of the bath – may not seem a lot to you – but believe me this is – as my children would say – “MEGA!”

On a different note I also found the note I left my husband Tom when I left to go and stay with my parents last Wednesday – written in big thick felt pen and using the words “yuck” and “wrench” and “can’t bear” and “don’t want to go” … so maybe this being truly who I am is not just about watching telly and not doing the washing up – maybe it is about speaking my truth too.

And this brings me to lacrimation – which is a grand word for secreting tears – for crying.  Yesterday I found this information about crying – it blew me away…

“Perhaps the most interesting discovery about lacrimation (secretion of tears)  was made by biochemist Dr. William Frey II,Ph.D.  Dr. Frey found that, unlike reflex tears, which are 98% water, emotional tears are much more complex.  These tears, which are secreted when we are sad, angry, frustrated, or overwhelmed in any way, have 24% more of the protein-based hormones: prolactin, adrenocorticotropic hormone, and leucine enkephalin.  These protein-based hormones, which our body produces due to stress, reduce our ability to function. Therefore, when we shed emotional tears, our body is excreting toxins.  As a result, for many, crying is usually a cathartic experience .
In addition to protecting the body from high levels of stress hormones, crying emotional tears has also been linked to the release of endorphins.  Because endorphins numb pain and improve mood, this is another reason why crying tends to make us feel better .  These mental effects of crying are also reflected in the altered physical state it results in.  Generally after crying, our breathing, sweating, and heart rate decrease, and we enter a more relaxed state .”

Isn’t this AMAZING! Our bodies are so extraordinary that even having a good old cry is physiologically helpful to us in so many ways 🙂

So I’m going to continue “having the best time” – choosing deliberately what I want to do – not what I feel I ought – speaking my truth, crying when I feel moved – being more present and less in my head – criticising myself!

And so far it feels really good – and I haven’t had this level of energy and get up and go for months AND I know I could feel like death warmed up tomorrow and that’s fine too 🙂

Emily