Oh my goodness…this morning I was so happy, sunny, everything was wonderful – I did say to my meditation group, “I’m enjoying it while it lasts!” …little did I know that by 2pm – an hour or two later I would be grumpy as hell! … and now … at 5pm I am happy again 🙂 I have been happy since about 3.55pm – when I saw my next client park his car and walk towards the house…
So what is this all about: this rollercoaster of emotions in the mind of little Emily Mumford – for those of you who have met me that will make perfect sense – to the rest of you it may sound a bit twee…
… I reckon it is about expectations…
This morning I woke up full of the joys of spring: my lovely eldest daughter is staying with us for a few days; I had lovely chats with my other two daughters last night …. my husband Tom, and my daughter Hannah are buying food for dinner whilst I’m engaged with my last appointment of the day – how fab is that? I neither have to decide what we are having or cook it – I don’t know which is more fabulous … everything felt good in my world …. but …
I had an expectation how my day would go – and it included running my meditation group and then doing three colonics – but my first appointment didn’t happen – no one came…
What this actually meant was that I sat down and had some time with Hannah that was a bonus – I don’t see her very often, I had a cuppa and a chat with Cristal who works with me – we are always saying we don’t make enough time just to sit and chat … and I got to eat more biscuits…
Hardly the worse time anyone has every had … in fact for someone – mainly me – who said that they were going to have “the best time” – if that person – i.e. me – was to list what they most enjoyed doing in the world right up the top of the list would be spending time with people I love preferably having a cup of tea and a biscuit … it just would … not hugely aspirational on my part I know – but true – a cuppa and a chat in easy company – that’s my ultimate…
But were Hannah and Cristal greeted by a sunny smile? No… instead I was stomping around my kitchen saying “I’m grumpy as hell!”
Bonkers!
So … did I have “the best time” today? Yes! Did I realise it at the time? Hell no!!! Would I sit and have tea and biscuits with Hannah and Cristal again if I had my time over? Hell yes!! Was I bright enough to realise I was having the best time – at the time? No…. what a wannack!!!
